Thursday, January 18, 2007

Unwell

"Now He arose from the synagogue and entered Simon's house. But Simon's wife's mother was sick with a high fever, and they made request of Him concerning her. So He stood over her and rebuked the fever, and it left her. And immediately she arose and served them." Luke 4:38-39

I am not feeling well today. I felt it coming down last night before crawling into bed, and it just kept rolling in. I slept poorly as I kept waking, feeling the lump in my throat get bigger and more sore each time, and dreading this morning. I hate not feeling well, and I hate being useless, so I was determined to sleep the best I could so I could till function a bit today. Then I woke and thought how horrible it was to be sick and that I really didn't want to do anything- let alone get Abigail ready for her school day. So I woke her up and headed downstairs to make coffee for Andy and put on some water for tea for me. And as I was walking down the stairs, it was almost as if a voice said, "look up, look around." And I took in the sight of my dining room and kitchen. And you know what? It's all clean. My home is in order and the laundry done, all because I was able to find some motivation yesterday. As a result, I am free to be sick. I can spend my day relaxing and healing and I can still function enough to spend time with Zander. With any luck, most of that time will be in front of the TV today though...

Even though I am feeling terrible, I have a wonderful calm and peace about me today. I am so grateful that God heard me yesterday and kept me going to get my house clean. Now today I can rest without that nagging feeling that I should be doing something. Being sick will also give me time to curl up with a book or two, that I haven't been able to really find time for the last few days. And of course, I get to be even more reflective than normal, so I'm sure God will have an item or two for me to ponder today. I am already thanking God for healing my body and helping me overcome this illness as quick as possible. I love him so much more every day, and being sick gives me a reminder of the wonderful healer he is to me.

3 comments:

Claire said...

I am SO sorry that you aren't feeling well. I know exactly what you mean about waking up during the night and feeling your throat swelling. I hate that feeling and have actually had it TWICE this year, and I NEVER get sick. I guess that comes with working in/near a hospital. Feel better soon...lots of water even though you probably don't want it...I never want water when I'm sick.

Erika said...

Thanks Claire. Your words came to me in the wee hours of the morning when I woke feeling like I choked in my sleep. My throat felt like it was on fire, so I ran and drank two glasses of water to try and help soothe it.

I guess yesterday was my day to "enjoy" being ill, because today I feel terrible. I'm not sure I'll get around to any postings today.

Claire said...

Take the day off...the second day is always the worst day for me too! Get well soon.